Archive for November, 2002

Engaging movements

November 30th, 2002

Going to an engagement party tonight at an Indian restaurant. God my bloody ulcers. I am going to take a double dose of Somac to cover it I think. Otherwise just been working my grant application some more. A quiet day and even a little relaxing sometimes.

Lu is having a nap before we go out and I am just tapping out this entry quickly.

Had ‘social club’ drinks at work last night. It is very weird working at a small place again – we only have about 50 or so people – everything works a much smaller scale. So few people and everyone knowing who everyone else is. I go from 2500 people to 50 people. Weird. But people seem nice and I am liking the management much better than the last job. Those of you who know about that know it was a less than pleasant place to be sometimes. So overall whatever happens and however this pans out I am glad I made the move and tried something new.

And to the girl who thinks she always ranks second best – you know deep down that you don’t. Any man enough to think you don’t rank number one is a man who can’t count and should be replaced with someone who can.

Take care all and speak again soon.

Reading: Budget reports

Listening to: Dark Angel Season One

Grant me my pieces of shiny government silver

November 29th, 2002

Still a little frazzled but a bit more down the track now of understanding
what is going . A few more things have jumped out of the woodwork that I
hadn’t anticipated – I am in the middle of a grant application for some
government money. Never applied for a grant before so it’s an interesting
exercise. Like writing a government tender with more begging.

Spent most of last night mucking around with Access reports to try to get
some coherent reporting out of soem Excel data. I realised thankfully
before I got too far that I was the way to designing and project
management and timesheeting system in Access. No intention of doing that.
I’d be tied up for days doing the development. Thankfully I have some gun
programmers working for me and one of them thought it would be ‘cool’ to
develop a web based timesheeting system. In his spare time. These
programmers are bloody crazy.

Reading: Protocols

Listening to: Storm outside the building and the tap of my new keyboad

Brain overload

November 27th, 2002

Brain overload but having more fun than in years. More when fun wears off *grin*

New Dawn, Heavy Heat

November 25th, 2002

Start new job tomorrow morning. A bit nervous but coping.

It’s also bloody hot here – it’s still 30.5C at sodding 11pm at night and I am sweating like crazy. Not looking forward to doing the suit thing tomorrow if the bloody heat continues. I know a couple of people who read this are in considerably colder places so you’re all notice that I’ll pay for a FedEx’ed case of snow. *grin* Whole house is doing the sauna thing. Very glad I watered the garden tonight. It’s going to be dryer than a dingo’s donger out there tomorrow – to use a choice Australianism that I think can only apply to the atmosphere here.

Something is definitely kooky with the weather this year. The winter was very mild and the summer is looking to be a real heat wave. Don’t know how we’re going to keep the garden alive and god those poor bloody bastards the other side of the mountains if it gets any warmer. It’ll kill what is left of the primary industry over there. This looks like the last gasp for Australian agri-business – at least the wheat/sheep/beef links of it. They can’t survive another six months of this. Perhaps predictions that the Eastern and lower Western Seaboards will be all that is habitable if global warming continues will be true. That is if we don’t end up under six feet of water from polar ice cap melts. Nothing like a cheery thought before bed…

Reading:

Listening to: Juliana Hatfield and Sheryl Crow for some very weird reason.

Aggression

November 24th, 2002

I seem to be noticing a trend towards aggression at the moment. At Zeal where I spend a lot of time I’ve noticed a radical increase in the agression of some of the volunteers. I recently had to arbitrate a vicious little squabble between two Zealots who were acting like small children. I just don’t see the need for all the agro. It depresses me and gives me a headache.

Stayed at C & G’s place last night because I couldn’t get a cab home at about 2.30 in the morning. Bloody taxi did show up – about an hour and half after I called by which time I was well and truly asleep – C heard it pull up. Back at C’s tomorrow too for start of new job. Going over some briefing papers with her.

Reading: CNN and Television Without Pity recaps.

Listening to: Juliana Hatfield, some bloke called John Hiatt and Sixpence None the Richer

Definitions…

November 23rd, 2002

Two definitions I found quite amusing:

Definitions

Just Friends phrase – I don’t just want you to mourn the loss; I want to remind you of it every day. I want you to suffer. I want you to envy. I want you to die slowly, a bit at a time. And I want you to smile and thank me for it.

Depression n. – Anger without enthusiasm.

Off out to C and G’s place for drinkies at their Tropical themed party.

Razor sharp

November 22nd, 2002

I am not a conspiracy theorist. I don’t believe in UFOs, the New World Order, crop circles, the paranormal, CIA mind control programs or organised religion. I tend to look at things simply first. For this I use my favourite philosophical tool: Occam’s Razor. William of Occam posited: Pluralitas non est ponenda sine neccesitate. Which translates to plurality should not be posited without necessity. This roughly means “don’t make things more complicated than they have to be”. Why go to the trouble of developing a complicated hypothesis when the simple answer is probably the right one? With this in mind I tend to look at problems and try to find simple reasons for them.

Occam’s Razor is named after William of Occam – a sceptic who lived in the 14th Century – a period of time when it was seriously dangerous to be skeptical about a lot of things and especially religion. Ironically now it’s a common tool of atheists to prove the non-existence of God. Which would have rattled poor old William’s cage because for all his skepticism he was still a devout and religious man. Though given the Church now I suspect these days his skills would prove useful.

Too many people spend too much time over-analysing everything. Some things are simple. An example is this – Why do the US have an interest in Iraq? Is it to protect the free world? Reduce the dangers of weapons of mass destruction. Nope. It’s oil. Simple as that. If Israel had oil wells it’d be Fortress Israel with US troops manning the walls. People always want to make things complicated – like conspiracy theorists – things can’t be really understood unless they’ve been done to death and looked at from every angle.

More often than not the simple answer is staring you in the face. What’s worse it that you’ve probably ignored it because you’ve educated to think in terms of complicated not simple. People are taught to look at too many variables. Yes there is a place for analysis and the consideration of multiple vectors – but only if there isn’t a simple answer there first. Yes there can be numerous contributing factors but are they secondary to the core reason for something? I walk outside and get wet – why? Most likely because it’s raining! I hear a noise outside like a cat. It’s most likely to be a cat!

I’ve been thinking about this over the last few days as the result of listening to people discuss issues and it just burst forth. But rant over. Off to find some lunch.

Reading: re-reading some Repairman Jack novels

Listening to: Whirr of PC and Mitsu purring in her sleep.

Thinking all the time that if only you had eyes

November 20th, 2002

So I have left the house a total of three times in the last three days. People freaking me a little at the moment and crowds are something I don’t enjoy at the best of times. A little too autistic to be comfortable in large groups of people. Some environments I feel safe in – pubs are sort of cozy most of the time (and I suspect I am drinking too which always helps). But take a place like the Establishment (yucko!) and I go to pieces. I like open markets but get very nervous in supermarkets and shopping centres – well nervous and aggressive – I won’t even talk about the seven year old who attacked me with fly spray in the Marrickville Metro. So this week I am keeping it low key.

But I have got a fair bit done. Fixed many broken things, bought some things – including a funky new purple shirt and a new electric razor – organised other things and naturally me being – well me started working out stuff for the new job. C from my old work is going to be kind of my interim boss. Which is good, ironic and amusing. Old job would spit bricks in they knew this. So not going to tell them. *shush!* We get well and most importantly we know how each other think. We’ve had all the big fights and all the dramas so we don’t have to worry about that either. It’ll be just like old times siding with C and G over everyone else.

For those who I normally bother IM – I hope you’re appreciating the break *grin* – it’s because I’m not mobile anymore so I actually have to go into the front room to use the PC – and that means it’s a mono-task. I can’t cope unless I’ve got a , the TV , a newspaper, two cats, my laptop and my mobile going all at once. So the PC is a bit of let down. Probably some kind of ADHD at work there but shit I’ve got more than enough issues without doing that piece of self diagnosis *lol*

Reading: A very weird little called The Man Who Never Missed by Steve Perry. Very odd.

Listening to: Kasey Chambers, Chris Isaak, Heather Nova and Juliana Hatfield. Hey I was in an eclectic mood.

First day of mine

November 18th, 2002

First day of my pseudo-holiday. Should be happy but am confused I think because I don’t know what I am doing. I have to force myself not to think “Who was I supposed to call?” Or “What about that tender.” I have just stopped answering the phone with my old employer’s name too. But I had to bite it back a few times today. I feel sort of lost I guess – in limbo waiting for my new job to start. Which is sort of sad as I seem to be defining myself only within one context. I think I’ve spent so long wrapped up in work that I don’t see beyond it anymore. I wonder what happened to that other person who had interests and passions. Half the things I used to do I can’t be fucked doing now.

Another – maybe better – day planned for tomorrow I hope. Going to meander into the city and see the dentist and then hit Galaxy with the gift voucher work gave me as a going away present. No idea what I am going to get but I suppose we’ll will see what we will see when I get there. Perhaps some DVDs.

Reading: Nothing

Listening: Juliana Hatfield

Publish or be damned

November 16th, 2002

Early hours of Sunday morning. Lu is not feeling well and has spent most of the day in bed being sick/grumpy. I meandered around in the morning and then went and played pool with H for a little while before coming back home to do the good hubbie thing and look after Lu.

Got some take-away which was bloody awful and we both have sick stomachs now. Got a couple of DVDs out – Star War II – Attack of the Clones and Charlotte Gray. AOTC was dreadful – Lucas should have shot for writing those love scenes between future Darth and his little Princess. He cannot write people dialogue for shit. And all those proto-stormtroopers with Kiwi accents. Very, very weird.

Charlotte Gray I had no idea what it was about – I picked it up because Cate Blanchett was the cover. Great film. Quite sad. Probably surprised a few people about what they thought really happened in Occupied France and how horrifically the French collaborated with their German occupiers. Not many people realise that the Resistance was a series of small, splintered groups often with different ideologies and objectives. Their biggest enemy wasn’t always the Germans either but other French people who supported the occupation and willingly betrayed them.

Though I’ll never forget those little plaques walls in France that remember the 35,000 or so people who did fight back:

“Here in 1942 three unknown Resistance fighters were executed by the Gestapo” or “Here in 1943 brothers Antoine and Jean Leopold, aged 16 and 18, were executed by the SS in reprisal for Resistance activities.”

Of those people who did fight back many were tortured murdered by the Nazi’s and Vichy government – people like Jean Moulin, Marc Bloch, Charles Delestraint, Frederic de Jongh and hundreds of others.

a similar train of thought I visited the French Museum of the Army in Paris years ago and they had an exhibition about the history of WW2. This is my slightly tongue-in-check version of what they said:

One morning the French army rolls up to the frontline and says “Sod off you Krauts – you’re not invading us!” After a bit of postering the entire Army decides they’ve shown those Germans what for and meander off for a well deserved coffee and bagels. Whilst they are having breakfast the evil Krauts invade through Belgium and take most of the bloody country. Fast forward a few years and the French Army comes back from their bagels and notices the Germans and then single-handedly kicks them out of France with their tail between their legs. Oh yes and there were some other people around – Amercians and British – but really it was the French holding up the majority of the effort.