Archive for September, 2002

In the house of the Lord…

September 29th, 2002

Went to a family christening for Lu’s little baby cousin today. I was standing in for the baby’s uncle who in the US and couldn’t make it. I haven’t been in a church for a long time. Being a devout aethist they’re not my list of likely places to visit. Unless they contain works of art I want to see or this one time when I was in Paris and followed this gorgeous Swiss backbacker into a church just to continue the conversation I was having with her.

The priest was very pushy as well. Had that grumpy old priest attitude going strong. He preached about not using your power, however little, over other people because you wouldn’t get into Heaven if you did. I was a tad cynical the topic as the statement was coming from a representative of the world’s largest organised, hierachical religion. Yeah the Vatican does a lot of turning the other cheek and not enforcing it’s power. But then again I suspect a lot of religious leaders aren’t the guest list for Heaven. Trust me! God put my name the door. Yeah right. Me? I’ll put my faith in something real.

Reading: Sandman

Listening to: Music Max Foxtel.

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Upgrades

September 29th, 2002

The great SSI no more Frames upgrade should happen today. So if there are any problems with the site then feel free to email me abusive things and I’ll fix them up. I expect teething problems over the next few days. Adios all.

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Blue Jean Baby LA Lady Seamtress for the Band

September 26th, 2002

I just went in to see Lu and watch her sleeping. I thought I heard her call my name but was mistaken. Sort of tired but not. Sort of antsy but not too. Want a drink but trying to avoid having one. Know I’ll feel like crap if I do tomorrow but also know I won’t bloody sleep without one. Maybe go outside with some fruit juice and some smokes and read my . Once I break this habit of drinking at night when I’m reading I should be right. I just to replace the booze with fruit juice. I think it’ll be okay if I do. Also I hope the new job (if I get it) will give me some drive and make me somewhat happier. Just finished the application so almost there.

Reading: Still The Concrete Blonde by Michael Connolly

Listening to: Almost Famous soundtrack, Fine Young Cannibals, Tom Waits.

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Pain in the neck

September 25th, 2002

My neck has that pain in it that indicates that I am tense. It’s not an injury pain but a tension pain that I know won’t go away until I get home and lie down. That’s if I don’t already have a mountain of work to undertake when I do go home – and oh yes what a sodding surprise but I do have a ton of work. But I am the path to applying for this new job which makes me inordinately happy. I’ve started my cover letter, updated my CV and organised two references. Nervous as hell. Stomach tied up in knots. Haven’t been this serious about a job for a number of years. I think I suppose I’ve got a lot riding the outcome. I’ll be depressed as hell if I don’t get it. But I feel I’ve got a good case and a great story to tell.

As you can see most serious and thoughtful discussion absent from my blog at the moment. Maybe when I’m feeling calmer it will return.

Adios all and take care.

Reading: Michael Connolly The Concrete Blonde

Listening to: air-con whirr and Almost Famous soundtrack

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Acting out

September 24th, 2002

At home again. Totally swamped. The phone has rung 48 times today. Feeling a bit lonely and tired. I don’t think Lu fully understands how isolated it at work for me. Fighting an uphill battle and seemingly rarely winning. Thankfully the job my friend Caroline was talking about has just been advertised and I’ve started working a covering letter and updating my CV. Close to home. I’d be able to come home earlier and spend more time cooking. I might even master bloody noodle dishes. I always stuff noodles. Though I have seen a Pho course I want to do. Pho are Vietnamese noodle soups that I love. The course part of the SMH Good Food Month and it’s being held in Newtown so it’s close to home.

Anyways off out! Take care all.

Reading: Michael Connelly The Concrete Blonde

Listening to: Nena and New Order

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Monday night and almost famous

September 23rd, 2002

Watching Almost Famous with the totally gorgeous Kate . Very tired again and somewhat brain wasted. So very short entry. About 60% through a complete rewrite of the site to get rid of the frames. SSI too cool!

Adios all

Reading: Nothing

Listening to: Almost Famous

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Venture capital

September 21st, 2002

After a crazy week I’m sitting the couch and trying to be a vegetable. I worked out that I haven’t had a day off in four weeks. So the whole massively tired thing seems to make more sense. Means I desperately need some time off. I’m going to have a chat with the boss Monday to bitch, moan and otherwise complain.

I am slowly developing a frames less CSS and SSI based site. I got the SSI to work but in order to make in compatible for a many browsers as possible I need to work out some way of loading different CSS stylesheets for different browsers.

Have just read about the newly released National Security Strategy for the United States – which George W. Bush and Condoleeza Rice’s masterplan for American Imperialism. It’s the scariest document I’ve read since Mein Kampf. It’s a template for an attempt to Americanise the world. In combination with Bush’s internal security activities it makes me wonder how long before something happens in the United States which results in martial law being declared. How soon before some convenient event occurs that allows Bush to tighten his hold (or at least whoever in charge of that mess they call a government) over the country. I’d be looking closely at any event that occurs. I’m not some paranoid conspiracy theorist but that technique a tried and true one to scare people into supporting you. I’d cite the example of Hitler burning the Reichstag and blaming the Communists. It’s a scary document, written by scary people with the worst possible ideas about the way the world works. A document like this enforced by the people who wrote it will inspire hatred and violence and a response that will make the World Trade Centre look like a sideshow. It will create and breed new victims who in turn will grow into soldiers who will inflict their revenge upon those who victimised them. History will repeat itself in form of more bloodshed and pain. So little vision with such an enormous cost. Sometime I wonder if the United States will ever learn from the mistakes of their past.

Reading: The Mermaids Singing by Val MCdermid

Listening to: My So Called Life.

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Damn Lies

September 19th, 2002

hearts broken and never healed
lies too many told for minds to change
costly nights and disappointment looms
into blackened eyes and cornered rooms
prices to figure for wages of sin long
since spent spirit and smoke
times come to make changes and
pay dues long forgotten
there are no clean breaks nor white lines
just revenge and damn lies

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Tired, grumpy and overworked

September 17th, 2002

Only took two days for my weekend rest – well my Sunday rest – to be overwhelmed by work. I worked out last night that with no replacements for two of my staff who’ve left and two staff a months leave I am actually fielding the work of three or four people. No wonder I feel like crap.

Lu and I are going to dinner with another couple tonight at their place and that should be somewhat more cheery. At least I hope so. I have that ingrained totally tired feeling. Need to go and drink some wine.

Reading: Sandman

Listening to: Maren Ord

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Feeling blocky

September 16th, 2002

Not feeling overly creative today. I keep meaning to play around with my web design by replacing the frames with CSS positioning but I keep getting sidetracked. Plus I keep trying to find some combination of positioning I like and it never works. I think I might have to pinch some and adapt that. There are some very good sites out there for this sort of thing. The next step to work out some way of not replicating nav bars and other crap everytime I launch the page. The PHP version didn’t work all that well so I think I need to try something else. Maybe experiment with SSI or the like.

Reading: Sandman

Listening to: Nothing

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