Had the electrician come through today – for a wonderful $100 bucks I got 1/2 hours work. I am definitely in the wrong line of work. But thankfully what I thought was dodgy wiring turned out to be loose wires. If it had been dodgy then start adding the dollars together to pay for a rewire of the whole house. Just what I need at the moment. Feeling like crap and have had a totally crap day. In an incredibly bad mood overall and now have to go out and be social with people. Thankfully it’s our friends Michelle and Simon who are good value at the best of times and I enjoy Simon’s company. He’s a damn funny man – for a lawyer. *grin*

Am poking around for a decent web host too. Getting a little sick of my current host and have had some strange outages and happenings in the last few weeks. Maybe this weekend I’ll do a proper search and see what comes up.

Anyways on the way out the door. Adios…

Listening to: New Paul Kelly album – which is really quite good.

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I am starting to worry about myself. Today I felt like crap and didn’t go to work and slept most of the day away. I also watched My Best Friend’s Wedding – which is a total chick flick – which I’ve seen before and really enjoyed it. And absolutely no fucking way would anyone pass Julia Roberts over for Cameron Diaz. It so did not make sense. Then again I may be in the minority because everyone around me – thanks Lu and Ben – that I have just quizzed on this topic disagrees with me. Hmmm. It’s like my weakness for high school romance/coming of age films. I think I am the only straight man over 20 who watched and enjoyed both Drive Me Crazy and Can’t Hardly Wait. Actually I stand corrected on the straight thing. Any man over 20. I mean there’s sensitive and then there is taking things a little bit too far.

Hmmm. Having just re-read this all I can is – cold and flu medication – it so should be more illegal than dope.

Listening to: Maren Ord, Michelle Branch, Catie Curtis.

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Tired today and I actually a) got a good nights sleep and b) didn’t drink last night. Which is kind of frustrating because yesterday I got to work and was a little hungover and felt better than I do without any alcohol consumed last night. How am I supposed to be more responsible about my drinking when I feel better the morning after drinking than not? *lol*

Also been a busy little person at Zeal this week and have been migrating a large collection of people’s personal diaries. For my contribution of a good diary to read from an Australian have a read of I Love You Six Trillion Times which is one that I migrated today. From there you can find some links into a group of musical Melbourne friends and the bands they play in. Interesting to wander through a web of friendships expressed in the context of hypertext links.

Otherwise just meandering around and wondering why I bother to show up to work. Spent most of the day resolving disputes and putting people in the right place at the right time. It’s kind of annoying because sometimes people act like such children. It’s like “pat, pat – it’s alright – I’ll make sure little Johnny doesn’t steal your lollypop again” and then followed by “Johnny – stop stealing Timmy’s lollypop or I’ll smack you”. *sigh* Children…

Listening to: The Donnas, Maren Ord, Sarah Harmer, Catie Curtis and other chick sort of music.

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Had to rebuild my machine – I’d recommend against ever installing Windows XP Professional over the top of Windows 2000 Professional. Just scratch install it. It works much better. Really. Trust me on this. Honestly – new laptop rebuild later – how the fuck do Mickeysoft stay in business? *sigh*

Visited my friend Caroline and her new baby today – which blew most of the afternoon with lunch and coffee and chatting. She looks so well and the baby is well, happy and quiet. I can’t see her coming back to work and I kind of wonder if she even wants to. She seems so happy. Now if I did the house husband thing and looked after our potential kids… hmmmm.

Another stanza of the poem I’ve been thinking about:

I remember meeting her
Eyes laughing and little known
of good that could come to me
Or sorrow built from horses back
that would see us apart for so long

She was smiling,
pale and skinny with a spark
that lit me and her place
With little need then but soon to begin
all that would make its revenge on me

Anyways it seems to be coming slowly and it’s probably crap but it’s my crap and it’s more than most of us can offer… *grin* Bad poetry that is…

Listening to: Natalie Merchant, New Order, Nena, Gladiator soundtrack, cats meowing.

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I’d like to be anywhere but here today I think. My boss has gone home sick and I am thinking about the same thing – I woke up with nasty muscle aches and what feels like the start of the return of my flu. Also woke up with memories of very strange dreams. I only remember a little of them but stuck in my mind is the image of a large rambling house/warehouse that seemed to go on forever and a very strange family that lived there and me being somewhere there doing something. Was very odd and had quite a strange transition from dreams to reality and I think partly woke up and then fell back to sleep again several times during this morning.

Also wrote a snippet of poetry on the way to work this morning. Don’t know whether I’ll continue it but thought I’d record the creative process (which happens rarely these days) for posterity.

I remember meeting her
Eyes laughing and little known
of good that could come to me
Or sorrow built from horses back
that would see us apart for so long

Listening to: Michelle Branch, Maren Ord, Beth Orton.

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Just home from dinner with friends. It was sort of strained a couple of times but otherwise good. Ended up at the Empire of Annandale which I always enjoy. No idea who was playing but they were fun. Not really keen on writing anything more tonight but maybe tomorrow.

Listening to: Nothing.

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Was hammered last night and am now slightly paying for it. Not hungover as such but rather fairly tired and feel a little worn out. Nat and I had fun though. Can’t remember large chunks of the evening and have a fairly bad feeling about some of the chunks I can’t remember which suggest to me that I may have been a bit of a dickhead. Wouldn’t be the first time and I suspect not the last time either. Anyways going to dinner tonight and need to get ready.

Adios until later.

Listening to: Silence, occasional beep of someone signing into Messenger.

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Presentation went well. I hate presenting last though because everyone is totally bored and all want to go home. Thankfully I worked through at lightning speed and everyone was well pleased at the rapid closure of the afternoon.

My friend Nat is up in Sydney today and we be going out to paint the town red tonight – and see if she can meet some boys.

Until tomorrow…

Listening to: Air-con, Alex Lloyd and rambling Friday afternoon staff.

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Another day going by. Got to give a presentation to about 400 people this afternoon which plays on my nerves a little – I am never very good in front of large groups of people – about ten is my limit. I have to make myself not say “um”, to stand still and not wander around the bloody place all the time and to keep calm and remember what to say. Thankfully I am talking to slides not off the cuff or from cards. Also thankfully I spent a few years at school debating (which yes makes me a geek but makes me a slightly more confident geek than some others) which hopefully I’ll remember how to not look like a dickhead.

Lu, her brother and her dad have gone up to the Hunter Valley for a couple of days so I am on my own. I was intending to go out tonight and hit the town but my drinking partner Brent ditched me at the last minute so it looks like a night at home instead. Ah well…

Listening: The Ataris, Paul Kelly and the arrival of many people into the office which has been empty of late.

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Actually got a good nights sleep last night for the first time in days – though poor Lu had to sleep in the other room because I was a snoring monster due to my sinuses. That meant also that the cat’s migrated into the other room which probably helped my breathing and sleep too. Otherwise quite a productive day overall with some good meetings and some reasonably happy clients. Back on the upswing of moods again too. Not sure why either but I have no complaints about the feelings of well being generated. Certainly better than being a miserable depressed git. Felt good to get things off my chest too – strangely good given this is for all intents and purposes a public forum – though as far as I know no one reads this blog on a regular basis. But anyways just a short note today, though I am thinking about some other things about that period of life I’d life to put down on paper – figuratively speaking.

Adios all

Listening to: Maren Ord and the smell of pizza.