Archive for April, 2002

Went with the golden way

April 14th, 2002

Went with the golden way of ridding oneself of ulcer pain and drinking it into oblivion – unfortuantely it only works whilst you’re drunk. When you wake up the next morning feeling worse than ever. Visit to the GP this week then.

You must read this great article. It’s a article about photgrapher Joe Galloway whose reporting, together with Lt. General Hal Moore, became the film We Were Soldiers. The battle at LZ X-Ray was the turning point of the war when the Americans first understood the extent of the battle they had joined. 400 US Air Cavalry troops where surrounded and nearly overrun by three NVA regiments. The resulting battle cost 305 American lives – one of the heaviest losses ever sustained by a single American regiment in addition to the lives of 3,500 North Vietnamese troops. It’s a great article and well worth a read. It an incredible story because it a microcosm of the whole Vietnam experience from a perspective of what went , why the Americans lost, and the sheer bloody horror of the conflict.

Listening to: Anything and everything.

Still tender writing and struggling

April 13th, 2002

Still tender writing and struggling to find coherent things to say as I am not feeling overly enthusiatic about the . Feel quite unwell with my ulcers playing bloody murder with my stomach and giving me a feeling of massive heartburn all the bloody time. I am also in need of a haircut and a shave but can’t stuffed to do either. Very low motivation factor today.

Lu had another hypo last night – woke me up at about 3AM and was conscious but heading toward being comatose and starting to fit really badly. Thankfully she was conscious enough to feed pure glucose rather than try out my new found skills in injecting the glucagen needle. But still scary when you’re barely awake and trying to puzzle out what to do. We got up and she had some food and was feeling better – I think I must have been still partly asleep and only vaguely coherent but at least I did the right things.

Listening to: The Cure, The Ataris… the usual…

Still tender writing and still

April 11th, 2002

Still tender writing and still bored senseless by it. Hanging in there though with some thoughts of relaxing stuff tonight. I’m going to watch an episode of Buffy that we taped earlier in the week and then go to bed. That’s not only totally relaxing but will put my brain into mellow and pleasant shutdown mode – the only possible risk if Emma Caulfield looking cute in this episode – that could result in restless sleep.

Got to think of something to cook for dinner too. Lu wants heathly vegetable stuff and I feel like risotto. I think I’ll do a vegetarian risotto with carrot, sweet corn, and onion. Anyways got to get back to my tender and thoughts of home…

Listening to: TISM, The Ataris and The Housemartins … hey I think I’m weird too.

Tuesday night and the day

April 9th, 2002

Tuesday night and the day went much as expected. Except for item three my To Do list – which didn’t happen. Shame, maybe some other day. Otherwise just meadering around the web and working a tender document – which boring me senseless and I am having a considerable amount of trouble focusing . I think it’ll be a closed door to the office and a sign up tomorrow. Something like: “Annoyed, angry tender writer with document in progress and loud punk music playing – DO NOT DISTURB – at risk of loosing life through death by thrown stapler.” Yes…. Something to do tomorrow…

Listening: the domestic going next door… *sigh* Police calling time again.

Monday evening and sitting again

April 8th, 2002

Monday evening and sitting again in front of the computer. Lacking enthusiasm for doing much of anything at the moment. Going back to work tomorrow – not that I didn’t work in my alleged holiday – and first up a sales meeting. Not the most likely event to spur my cognitive processes back into gear. I’ll probably be my first caffeine fix by 10.00am I’d say and my first temper tantrum by about 10.15am. A colleague informed me that in my absence and I quote “Things have gone to shit…” Which translates to no one making any sodding decisions and storing them all up for my return. They have even stopped emailing me because they know I’ll answer grumpily whilst holidays and now wait to get me in person. I feel they have failed to consider that I am made even more grumpy by this procedure and are therefore even less likely to give them a good hearing. I am doing a small To Do list for tomorrow:

1. Make sure I get out of bed at about 6.30am otherwise I’ll sleep for eternity.
2. Rub crap off white board and write down list of current activities and try to get my head around what disasters have happened in my absence.
3. See if Jessica from becoming something online and if she’s interested in chatting about her weblog.
4. Go to the Sales Meeting.

Barring number one, without which I won’t actually get to work, guess which of these remaining items I actually give a shit about? Yep, you’d be partially right about number two – I do like my Giant Whiteboard of Organisation, Power, and Delegation – but actually it’s number three. I’ve read her weblog for a while and since my intentions are honourable and I merely seek conversation I am therefore a force for good. Which a rare thing for me so I will be enjoying it. Normally I am a force for evil and destruction. *lol*

Listening to: About 628 MP3s shuffle play. BTW Does anyone have an MP3 of Nena Hagen’s “99 Luftballons” they’d like to send me? I heard it for about twenty seconds whilst watching Grosse Pointe Blank and am now enamoured of hearing it again.. Hmmm actually now not required – the wonders of Gnucleus have found me one which I am currently listening to really, really loudly.

Back in Sydney. Need a

April 7th, 2002

Back in . Need a holiday from my holiday now. Maybe more later. Or some tomorrow.

I joined the Peer-to-Peer Review

April 5th, 2002

I joined the Peer-to-Peer Review Project. Posted below my review:

Hub’s Blog: a chronicle of a sex addict

Hub’s Log details the experiences and life of a self-proclaimed ‘sex addict’ and the ‘acting out’ surrounding his addiction. Overall it’s an entertaining and generally well written blog with a fair amount of adult content. As a result of the adult content I would not recommend this blog for under-18′s. The blog tends to focus the activities of the author’s daily life and ranges from what he had for dinner in the preceeding days to accounts of meeting potential sexual partners, and discussions about his interests in sports. A lot of the material discusses the guilt and anxiety surrounding his addition and the potential consequences of cheating his wife. The author also details his struggle with addiction through his visits to a support group and reliance of a Higher Power. It hard to determine exactly who the author’s target audience and I doubt very much whether the the author of this blog intending it to be read by his family, friends, or employer. With this mind I would suspect it mostly an outlet to discuss his life and issues and provide a theraputic forum for his feelings and emotions. The blog regularly updated, at least once every one to two days.

The writing style of this blog fairly informal and relaxed. Some posts seem more articulate than others and suggest that the author has two posting styles: one of quick ‘newsy’ posts and the other of more thought out and well considered posts that express his feelings and state of mind. The author obviously educated and has a good grasp of grammar and spelling. A minimum of slang used and the only areas in which readers might be puzzled in the use of a variety of acronyms and other terms relating to both his addiction and his interest in sports. Visitors from countries other than the United States would be most likely unaware of the sporting events, teams, and people that the author discusses. The design of the blog simple and well laid out with a good color scheme that easy to read. The author uses the YACCS commenting system which relatively simple to operate and means commenting posts quick and easy.

Overall I enjoyed reading this blog mainly because it was discussing a topic outside of my area of knowledge and it offered insights into a problem and life experience I had not considered. As mentioned previously it probably isn’t suitable for younger readers or people who have problems discussing topics like adultry or sex. The author seems very forthright and honest and the experiences detailed in his life could provide insights to other people suffering from this addiction or generate further understanding for some people of some broader issues with marriage and relationships. It’s often updated and an easy website to view and read. In addition readers have the opportunity to offer feedback via email or comments.

Well still in Melbourne. Had

April 5th, 2002

Well still in . Had a very lazy day yesterday because my blood alcohol level was far too high to do anything but lounge around and feel seedy. Considerable amounts of wine and several very nice glasses of Glenfiddich was consumed Wednesday night – when I spoke to my dinner companion yesterday she had disposed of seven empty wine bottles. Hmmm. Seven into four almost two bottles each. No wonder my ulcers were complaining. Am going to catch up with my friend Dennis today and consume some beer and smoke some cigarettes – ah yes ooops the smoking thing. Did not last past a week. Which okay I suppose considering the last effort was less than a day. Ah well. Cannot be helped. Maybe next time I will plan better and have a clear non-family, non-, non-spending heaps of time around alcohol sort of week or two. Anyways back to Sunday and then back to work Tuesday. Not that I’m not already answering emails and doing work.

Listening to: Nothing…

Down in Melbourne for the

April 4th, 2002

Down in for the Comedy Festival so I am only blogging once or twice this week but go and see Guardian Angels. It’s bloody funny!

Listening to: Silence…