Archive for February, 2002

Nothing overly exciting happening today.

February 28th, 2002

Nothing overly exciting happening today. Woke up slightly flu’ey so worked from home for a while and then decided I felt up to seeing my scary client this afternoon. It’s one of those projects that seem to go on forever. Everytime I think I’m done something new pops up and I have to resolve it. Hopefully that was my last visit. Wouldn’t even be doing it but it was very nearly badly fucked by one of my collegues and I’d prefer to make sure it got done right by doing it myself. On other works topics I am being depressed about job hunting. The market is not a pleasant place at the moment. Ah well I can cope for a while.

Bloody annoying but I didn’t get to see Sarah Harmer on Tuesday – both Lu and I were zonked and I just could not face going out – not even to see Sarah. Damn shame but hopefully she’ll return and have a show on a night when I’m less tired.

Adios until I get time to write again.

Listening to: Groovejet, the muttering of the TV in the background and my cats meowing for dinner.

Up, about and can’t bloody

February 23rd, 2002

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Up, about and can’t bloody sleep. It’s about 2am and I’ve just about exhausted my interest in the Web, TV, and my current collection of books being or waiting to be read. In addition I have little or no desire to talk to the freaky people who ICQ me at this time – not withstanding the numerous requests/offers for porn that annoy the hell out of me. So a little update on my day and evening seems in order:

After being strangely and viciously angry this morning I spent the rest of the afternoon mucking around with the website, doing some work and adding Aussie weblogs for Zeal. That occupied a fair but of time and I had the chance to listen to some music at the same time – am slightly and irrationally in love with Sophie Ellis-Bextor’s “Murder on the Dancefloor”. I really liked the Spiller track she did – Groovejet – and when I heard the clip this morning on Rage I was like totally smitten. It’s annoying too because the song sucks – it’s just her voice that makes me go all tingly – I don’t even find the bint attractive. Very annoying. But on the topic of music I am going to see Sarah Harmer at the Hopetown on Tuesday which has cheered me up no end. Though I have a job interview on Wednesday morning – that’ll be fun – not…

But back to the day. Lu got home massively late from work and both of us decided that unless we went out and did something it would turn into a complete sloth weekend. Thankfully we both agreed dinner would be a suitable excursion to make it appear we had lives. Of course none of our friends can cope with notice that short so we made it just us. Went down to the Razor’s Edge on Enmore Rd which was good. We were giving it another try after a visit about a year ago when the food and service totally sucked. So after grumpily vowing never to darken the door I was persuaded to give it another shot. Fortunately this time it was great – the last time must have been a bad, bad night. I must admit to commenting that restaurants should not be allowed to have bad nights – especially when I’m in them.

For the second weekend in a row we’ve swore to actually go and see one of either Amelie or Monsoon Wedding but given our track record with movies I have some doubts about our attendance at either.

Now going to try to go back to sleep and probably wake up Lu and the cats in the process – which is not going to make me a popular man. Night and take care all.

Listening to: Sophie Ellis-Bextor as discussed above…

I got my letter published

February 23rd, 2002

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I got my letter published in the SMH. I’m not sure that the majority of readers will agree with my sentiments but this ‘war against terror’ is like all American foreign policy – ill thought out and broken down into sound bites. At least it always seems that way when Americans bomb countries most of their citizens couldn’t find on a map. I’ll never forget a poll that the Economist magazine took during the Gulf War asking a thousand Americans to point out Kuwait on a map. Only about three could. Some of the other places that were identified as Kuwait were actually the Falklands, the Balkans, Germany, the Sudan, and North Carolina. As a result of this seemingly almost universal ignorance amongst the American population they simply do not understand the countries and people who oppose them. Perhaps what is worse is that they do not understand the reasoning behind their opponent’s hate. Post September 11 most Americans seemed stunned that anyone would want to do this to America. What the fuck? It’s like they have no history – they live in a totally a-historical society – with only some vague cultural memories retained as 10 second takes of “Where are they now?”on Entertainment Tonight. People of America remember Cuba, Vietnam, Cambodia, Somalia, Central America and all the other places where through covert or overt force you interfered in the freedoms and liberties of sovereign peoples. Remember you trained Osama Bin Laden, remember the butchers you trained in Central and South America and sent forth to torture and murder, remember the weapons you paid for that killed and maimed innocent women and children. Remember with shame and then ask yourself why you are a target, ask yourself if the chickens have come home to roost, as yourself if America is now paying for its sins. Maybe the dead of September 11 will make their peace with the millions of innocent dead that were made in America.

Somehow I seem to be very angry this morning… I’ll try to make the rest of this post somewhat lighter but I make no promises.

I joined a peer-to-peer review of blogs at Acutecut. You sign up and someone reviews your blog and you review someone else’s in return. Will be interesting to read a review of this – at least it guarantees one reader *lol*. Will be curious to see who I get to review – hope it’s something that makes sense… usually otherwise known as someone over the age of about 23 because almost everyone (with a few notable exceptions who know who they are) I know younger than this has an entirely different cultural experience from me. Maybe I’m getting old… *grin*

Listening to: my mellow house, some mellower House, some Spiller, some Violent Femmes, some Judy Henkse. An all round weird musical day.

Here

February 19th, 2002

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I’m always going to love you here
in this place I remember last at night

I’ll always come back to you here
in this place I can’t let go

I’ve always been here
in this place, this little twisted part of my soul

I’m always fucking here.

After some irritating delays Blogger

February 19th, 2002

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After some irritating delays Blogger now seems to be letting me add stuff. Don’t know what was going on there but since it doesn’t cost me anything then it doesn’t do to complain! They do a bloody good job given the volume of blogs and the load that must be on their servers.

So I had my chat with my bosses and I don’t believe they’re overly happy campers with me. So I’ve started looking for another job and had some small initial luck with what’s out there but I’ll have to see. More later on that…

Wrote a letter to the Sydney Morning Herald after reading about the death of the first Australian soldier in Afghanistan. The letter:

Whilst reading about the death of SAS soldier Andrew Russell in Afghanistan (SMH 18/2) I was reminded that nearly 39 years ago Sergeant William Hacking became the first Australian to die in Vietnam. Over the next 12 years 507 other Australian, 58,000 American, and several million Vietnamese names would be added to that list. All of whom died in an American-instigated ‘war against Communism’ that had murky aims and dubious benefits. I can only hope there won’t be 500 more Australian names added this time.

Andrew Russell from Adelaide, with a wife and new born child, dead after the vehicle he was travelling in hit a land mine. At Anzac Day we always say “Lest We Forget” and now we get to add another name to the list of men and women whom we have to remember. In this case yet another Australian who died helping enforce American foreign policy in a war not our own. Enough to make me quite depressed really.

The crazy jingoism we seem to experiencing at the moment in conjunction with the equally naive and probably ultimately pointless ‘war on terror’ really makes me wonder about the world we have made. I wonder whether me, and hopefully others, feeling this way is sign of the potential for greater enlightenment. Then I think about the philosophers, humanists, and political scientists have had similar thoughts for centuries and little seems to change. As the philosopher George Santayana, wrote, “Those who do not remember the past are doomed to repeat it.” Perhaps we are beyond hope, devoid of merit, or as some of the more extreme environmentalists believe, a pox on the planet. Or more importantly perhaps a desire for humanity to be different, to be more cooperative or peaceful is wrong within itself. Perhaps we are forcing humanity into a mould that it does not fit into – that our natural state of being is one of chaos, disorder, violence and individualism. That cooperation, communication, and community are concepts forced upon us and ones not suited to our basic natures and desires. It is often hard enough for us to communicate at a micro level that it is no surprise that the macro level is a disaster. Personal vested interests always seem to override any community feeling we try to generate. Selfishness and fear work together to overcome any attempt to at mutual aid. It’s ironic, given the medium I am communicating in, that many people believed closer communication and the elimination of the tyranny of distance would induce world peace, mutual understanding and global cooperation. It seems, however, to merely highlight faster the inequities, suffering, misery and pain which humans inflict upon each other. I’ll leave you with a quote from Tesla that shows the hope for universal peace which he and others believed would be fostered by the growth of human inter-communication:

War cannot be avoided until the physical cause for its recurrence is removed and this, in the last analysis, is the vast extent of the planet on which we live. Only through annihilation of distance in every respect, as the conveyance of intelligence, transport of passengers and supplies and transmission of energy will conditions be brought about some day, insuring permanency of friendly relations. What we now want is closer contact and better understanding between individuals and communities all over the earth, and the elimination of egoism and pride which is always prone to plunge the world into primeval barbarism and strife… Peace can only come as a natural consequence of universal enlightenment… (Nikola Tesla, “My Inventions: the autobiography of Nikola Tesla”, Hart Bros., 1982.)

Signing off in a melancholy mood…

Listening to: Pixies – Doolittle and Paul Kelly – Songs from the South

Wow. I’ve actually got a

February 16th, 2002

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Wow. I’ve actually got a few minutes to tap away with a new blog. Been a hectic week – spent the bits of it that didn’t consist of me running around like a headless chicken thinking about finding a new job and being frightingly depressed about the fact that there is no decent work out there. Still pursuing the one decent lead I’ve had in months but I think it’ll take a while to pan out. I’m also feeling like I’m increasingly heading toward the point where I actually start to tell people what I think/want/feel/demand. Which would not be good. Tact isn’t one of my strong points and I have been in such a fucking bad mood all week that it has been hard to hold back. I very nearly told a couple of people to fuck off this week, in what would have been a further career un-enhancing move. So I have on my list of exciting tasks first thing next week to sit down with my boss and have a heart-to-heart about how under appreciated I feel. Of course this would be good if a) He could do anything about it and b) If even if he could that it wouldn’t be squelched by the executive. *sigh* Nothing like a good bitch-and-moan.

Otherwise spent the morning reading a Dawson’s Creek recap and reading Sars’ TomatoNation. Her current piece on her cats made me laugh out loud – very funny and very true. I have a cat just like Little Joe – our Romeo (named by the Cat Protection Society. Who called the other cat sharing his cage – you guessed it – Juliet!) Sometimes cat people scare me *sigh*. Now Romeo is a wonderful animal but is as thick as two short planks – so much so that it makes me feel bad when I fool him into come inside. He looks at me and the closed door and you can see the confusion as he tries to make the connection. Usually this involves taking a wander to the door to sniff it – smell for cats somehow assists them in determining the open or closed status of doors and windows – and some very annoyed tail swishing. After some further sniffing and swishing he accumulates enough neural energy to work out that he is locked in. Thankfully since this usually involves a simultaneous neural overload he suddenly forgets he was annoyed and strolls off to find somewhere to sleep until dinner time. Also thankfully both of these reading activities are noted for their ability to cheer me up and in combination with some Madness playing the background have made me feel much better.

I’m thinking, that if Lu’s in the mood, we might go and see Amelie tomorrow – it’s on just down the road – at the cinema we barely visit because we’re lazy bastards – even thought it’s five minutes walk. So look forward to me adding my contribution to film criticism sometime soon…

Also, some time this afternoon, I should have some pictures up – worked out how to use the eminently uncomplicated scanner and have now scanned in a half dozen or so pictures. So after I undertake the next task – which is to make them smaller without looking totally crap – I’ll have them up on the website.

Anyways adios…

Listening to: The Lemonheads – It’s a Shame about Ray and Madness – Divine Madness.

Busy, busy / crazy, crazy

February 13th, 2002

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Busy, busy / crazy, crazy couple of days. Just a brief note stating I still exist and am out here. I fear I have the desire to blog but that an absence of time is preventing me. Lots of stuff I wanted to say too… Back on normal track shortly I hope.

Listening to: Whirr of air-con and tape of keyboards.

Some good feedback from people

February 11th, 2002

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Some good feedback from people about new design has meant I am a happy camper. Any compliments about my design abilities (which I firmly believe to be non-existent) are going to go straight to my head. And okay – now that I have squeezed my giant ego into 1024 x 768 *grin* it’s back to normal programming.

Hey another day and not enough dollars. Back at work – still trying to fix some problems from pre-Christmas with a particular client – everytime I go out there it’s a good three hour journey and the last time I got drenched in their carpark for my troubles. So not too thrilled with having to return. Am aiming to make it NMPA – Not My Problem Anymore – sometime very soon. Other than that it’s business as usual. Normal stupid people asking for dumb things and then wanting them yesterday. But that’s okay – you get used to it after a while and I don’t even *sigh* very often anymore. The only good thing to happen today (and given my last little rant – very good) is that I got a potential job offer – or at least the lead of one. Worth investigating anyway given my somewhat melancholy relationship with my employer lately.

Sent Lu flowers this morning because I was somewhat of a grump on the weekend because of work – spent most of Sunday writing SLAs (Service Level Agreements for those of you fortunate enough not to know the acronym) and then when I got sick of that then fiddling with the website and then back to the SLAs. So when she spoke to me I was a tad grumpy on a couple of occasions. Lu definately doesn’t deserve that – especially given that it was my crap work that caused it. But she liked the flowers and I feel I am forgiven. I only feel forgiven because I don’t think she took my grumpiness as seriously as I did and didn’t know she needed to forgive me. But I know I’ve been attached to this screen more often lately. Probably working more than I should *sigh*. Thankfully talking to this blog and playing with the surrounding website seem to keep me resonably sane when I have to spend long hours attached to this keyboard.

Anyways back to the part of my life that makes the money that pays for the other parts of my life…

Listening to: The Housemartins – London 0 Hull 4

Just a couple of lines

February 9th, 2002

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Just a couple of lines as I have just uploaded the new design. So welcome to Kartar.Net incarnation four… Hope you enjoy it!

Listening to: Nothing…

One of those nights -

February 8th, 2002

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One of those nights – chatting with a friend who is having major boy troubles. She can’t work out what she wants from relationships – including the fleeting physical ones. Plus she has awful trouble setting boundaries between her friendships with men (of which she has a lot more of than female friendships) and the potential to be attracted to them. This naturally leads to silly things like sleeping with them. For most men this tends to colour the friendship and they find it hard to have a drink with someone who they slept with – at least not without being a little possessive and male. I keep trying to think of sensible and clever things to suggest but I suppose it’s down to her as to how she learns to deal with it.

Also working away on some designing stuff that’s annoying me (more later …) – trying to be stylish is distinctly not in character – as anyone who has seen me dress can assert.

I spent the last two days doing a St John’s Ambulance course on Senior First Aid. Was muchly boring and learnt little that I didn’t already know but at least I got to do an EAR and CPR refresher because it’s been a long time since I last did that. They also keep changing the way you do it – it has now become 2 breaths and 15 compressions for CPR as the optimum method for saving someone’s life. Though I found out that the average survival rate for CPR is 25%. Better than zero percent I suppose but still bloody depressing for the first aider if they have a 1 in 4 chance of getting it right.

Also achieved Zealot status at Zeal.com. This means I can manage some categories. So I’ve chosen to start with Australian Crime & Mystery Fiction and Australian Personal Home Pages. I’m going to try to add Online Journals to that shortly. That’ll do me for the moment and allow me to do a bloody comprehensive job of grabbing every single relevant site. I use heaps of searches and engines so this is quite cool to use my research skills and actually see the database increase and become more accurate.

As to the design stuff – much mucking around with the website is happening offline. Including a complete re-design based on Kartars’ budding CSS and Dreamweaver skills. Also I am aware of my paucity of design skill and have spent long hours experimenting with designs and colour to see if I can improve on the current mish-mash. So something new soon…

Listening to: Sarah Harmer – You Were Here. That women keeps getting cooler with every listen.